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Is the 2am thing again.

Awake.  A bit low. 

Is it the state of the world?

It's the dead marriage anniversary. On the 20th 

The government seems to want ever more control and the people just love it. 

 

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Kind of started this yesterday morning the 20th. Now it's 1am on the 21st.

I feel low.

FRIDAY 20/6

Row was good. The 8 was cancelled. 2 seat had called in sick. There was some confusion while we realised only 4 of us were actually present.  In the end:

1 Frank 

2 Neil

3 Arnie

4 Thorpy.

Was a pretty reasonable row. 

Work was a mixture. Got a pricing detail away. A tech problem on one design remains. Stubbornly.

Nice roast lamb dinner with Phoebe's XMIL and Fletch and Jai.

Had thought PAM was coming back to my place but she hadn't packed a bag for that. 

Maybe it's just the reminder of the marriage fail. I recall EOMA popped up on my phone during the afternoon of Marcus's wedding while I was standing on the hotel deck. 

Maybe it's just thinking about a life of mediocrity and under achievement. 

Things not achieved. 

Lack of realising what could be. 

It's 2am

Just life churning in my brain. 

20th also Tim's birthday and I forgot to drop in or call.  Was too fixated on getting home, feeding mags and getting to dinner. 

It's 3:15am

SATURDAY PLAN

4:30 alarm

5:00 depart

5:30 shed 

6:00 start to row up

7:00 race start

7:20 race end near elanor schonell bridge.

8:00 back at shed at West end. Wash boat

8:30 West end park Cafe