feeling empty

Mostly I write what I did but this post is just a note about feeling.

Physically I have a knot in my throat and another in my stomach. Shoulders feel tight.

Mentally my mind is churning. 

Catastrophising maybe. 

A feeling of inadequacy. That I can't be relied on and that I need to not rely on others. 

Watched the movie "the boys in the boat" this evening. Reminded me how the main character had it really tough. So I feel somewhat silly feeling down. My life is a breeze compared to his.