Tribe

I've no tribe so to speak.

One tribe is the old tribe. The group I was a part of while married. But I'm not really in it. No one calls me. I'm not invited to things. But at the same time, it impacts on me emotionally.  Especially when I hear of get togethers. 

I'm told it takes 4 years for guys to get over the rejection of divorce. So two years of depression and sadness ahead. 

Feeling low as I write this. 

Wondering what to do. 

Kind of buried myself in work and rowing. But that's really a distraction. 

Sometime I've got to work out how to move on. 

It's just really hard. How to get over 25 years of family focus. Church focus. Two tribes now nolonger. But still the echo's of the past. The heart strings tugged by the memories and remains of those groups. A feeling of anger and sadness of time wasted. Effort put in that lead to this. Effort directed to family and being in a group and now I have neither. Jealousy though that others do. 

Oh well. 

1am

I try to connect but when I phone, people don't pick up or if they do, they are busy.  On the flip side, no one calls me anyone. Who wants to talk to a rejected old depressed fuckker anyway. 

2:26am

3:00am watch it tick over. 

4:20am

5:30am

Brigidine Show Must Go On

Arty performance at Bigidine.  We had to queue and sign our lives away and now sitting in little family groups all separated by clear space.  CPC doing the tech. Jemma in the choir and the woodwind ensemble. She's far left with the techo.

Lewis' Birthday

Earlier in the week, Clare contacted me and asked if I'd like to come to visit Warwick for a surprise birthday dinner for Lewis. 

Chris & Dan indicted they would like to come.  So on Tuesday we loaded Chris' new ute with a pile of Bird Radar leftovers and departed for Warwick. We met John at his storage shed and unloaded. 

Then onto the Warwick club for drinks with Lewis and some of his work mates. Initially we could not locate it.  Partially because I had the wrong address but so does Google. It's a descret house with little signage.  We meet Lewis on the footpath outside.  He seemed momentarily confused but soon regained composure. 

Inside the club we were treated to beer and i had a very nice scotch and dry. X3 .  Chris and Dan played snooker on the full size table. Daniel Thomson 's mis spent youth put him in front.  He gave Chris Thomson a break and Chris responded by snookering Dan.

Then onto Lewis' house where Clare had put together a lovely roast. 

After dinner we moved to the lounge and a fire was lit. 

On our way back to Brisbane after celebrating Lewis von Stieglitz 's birthday.

A beautiful roast prepared by Clare McHugh Von Stieglitz, the requisite reclination on the couch where I was introduced to a thing called a "book". No batteries required. 

We stayed over night in Lewis's guest house and now we are braving the early morning fog on the way back to Brisbane.

Brigo Photo Shoot

 

 

 

 

 

 

UTE Battery

 The Ute has a flat battery

Supercheap have two options

Battery Wot

40mo 235  640cca aust made

$199  550cca  aust made

import $125 20mo 500cca  imported

delivery & install woolongabba $50-$60

I get knocked down...

Remember this

I get knocked down, but I get up again
You are never gonna keep me down
I get knocked down, but I get up again
You are never gonna keep me down

Well at the moment it's hard to get back up again. 

Feels like

I get knocked down, but I get up again
I get knocked down, but I get up again
I get knocked down, but I get up 
I get knocked down, but I get 
I get knocked down, but I 

I get knocked down, but 

I get knocked down, 
I get knocked

Most of the time it's a miscommunication and usually it's me who misunderstood. 

Tiida Remote Battery

The remote I have for the tiida is not responding. I checked the writing on the remote and as I read it,  it said I needed a CR2025 battery.  I had to buy a pack of 4. When I opened it,  I find a CR2032 inside.

$12 down the drain