EOMA

Today is EOMA  (End Of Marriage Anniversary)

Connecting with Phoebe has made a huge difference.  Major improvement in my mental health outlook.

The song "Creep" by radiohead illustrates a lot of the feelings I had 

https://youtu.be/XFkzRNyygfk?si=LA020n-1hXHyw2AF

 The key line that echoes in my mind was "I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo"

A more positive song that illustrates current feelings I enjoy laying back in the arms of someone. :)

Smokie: Lay back in the arms of someone 

https://youtu.be/opJyRioBHp8?si=XftTYmi0x6ioPD-b

It's hard to move one's mindset out of anger and sadness rejection . From wishing I'd never been married to remembering the good bits. 

Creep Lyrics

[Verse 1]

When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

[Chorus]

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

[Verse 2]

I don't care if it hurts

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

[Chorus]

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

Oh-oh, oh-oh

[Bridge]

She's running out the door

She's running

She run, run, run, run

Run

[Outro]

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here