Meditation

Saturday 

Sunday 

No meditation. 

Bike ride.

Evening movie on Netflix. 

Monday

Meditation "staying connected" 10min. seemed hard to concentrate.  Mind kept wandering. 

Tuesday 5:45am 10min.

Meditation "suffering of others"

Again difficulty staying with it. 

Knowing our own suffering helps to give us compassion for others. 

Our struggle. Different causes. Experience  Lead to feeling empathy.

Wednesday 8:40am

Holding onto live limits experience gets in the way of love.  

Let go to discover space. 

Let go of any pursuit and rest. 

Thursday 

Slept about 11pm-3am in one chunk. 

5:30-6:30 bike ride. 

6:50 meditation on intention. Kindness.

Friday 2 Oct 7:12am

Slept 1am-5am.

Picked up ute. Triggered sad. Such regret. No forgiveness. So many years of practice distance on her part and me putting up with loneliness on my part. That's of course also my fault because I'd kick the cycle along by trying to enforce? Intimacy. 

Meditation "being present"

I think I was too present. Mind kept running off. Gps, car shuffle, bike ride,  Ute fix mirror, marriage regret. More marriage regret.  Club committee disharmony....

Sat, Sun, Mon - Kind of forgot.  Had rowing day camp

Tue - 

Wed - forgot

Thur 8

Choice v simplicity

Who and what we have around us.

Fri 9 

Did at home.  Cat on lap. 

Went whole way.  Pretty good. 

Sat 3.36 am

Wide awake 

Try rain scape 

Sunday 11 2pm

Did it but don't recall the topic. 

Monday 12 @ 1am

Forgiveness. 

How festering blocks the ability to understand or forgiveness. 

Can't sleep.  Thinking about disagreement with NF.

Fast brain kept thinking about stuff and having to restart the meditation. 

LTR arrangements. 

Come and try next week. 

Coaching. 

Work 77ghz.

Fri 16th 2:30am

Awareness + compassion

Have thoughts but let them go. 

Keep mind clear. Motivation to help others. Sense of purpose. Train mind with compassion. 

It's 2:30am awake. 

Monday 19 

Lunch time in car.  Quite broken disrupted.

Tuesday 20 7:15 @magee st

"Unconditional love" by definition is Unconditional. 

Wednesday 21 6:30am

Meditation 10 min / day what happens in the rest of the day.  Carry the calm on

Thursday 22 oct 1:30am

Awake. Fast brain on rowing club issues. Meditation on reacting

Anger with anger

Fear with fear. 

Assign blame. 

Mind keeps busy.

Step outside and let the emotion to pass us by. 

Sunday 25 7:45pm

Approach to mediation is likely to be similar to approach life. 

Mon 12:01 am

Awake.

Monday 26 8:00am

Awareness. Application. Be aware -easier when taking it slow. 

I think what we are doing here is learning / training to catch the round and round fast brain and refocusing on something that is nothing of that makes sense. Going from worrying or churning over some issue to focusing the mind on something irrelevant like breathing because that does not lead to worry, feeling bad or angry. 

Tue27 11:25am

Seek happiness within amongst the pain or struggle. 

Had to restart 5 times.  Kept losing focus and missing what he was saying. 

Feeling good today. Bike ride with BW.

Not responding to negative rowing club emails by email. If it seems something positive can come from it, I'll call the person. 

Wednesday -forgot

Thursday 29 8am

Small things can consume us.  We get caught up creating a narrative and get caught up in the thought and this can go on for a week or so and the mind is consumed.  But can we note we are caught up and let it go. 

Fri 30 7:30

Sadness reflects vulnerability.  It's a part of our journey. 

So far good morning.  Row.  Breakfast. 

Meditation was fair.  Mind wandered a bit.  Thinking about today to do list. 

Sat 31

Did not do meditation. 

Evening - quite depressed. I guess no Jemma maybe trigger.  Hail storm nice.

Spoke to PK.  He was out driving kids and CK around Halloween  houses. He invited me to come back to their place for pizza. Declined.